my decision,,

assalamualaikum,,
i was crying damn sad in my room thinking that i have to return back to uia pj on sunday,,

my mum is not at home during that watering moments of mine,, haha,, i was praying with all my heart,, i ask Him to make me strong n able to face this homesick syndrom,,

tapi ak mmg da x bley thn agi,, tibe2 1 idea terlintas d ati,, masuk form 6,, duk rmh,, wat form 6 sains yg org ckp susah nk mati tu,, tapi pas stpm ak kne g u jugak,, huhuhu.. dan ak pn cari alternatif len sbb ak xnk tgglkn umah,, ak jmpe 1 ipts,, Multimedia University Malacca,, kt ctu de 1 course yg agk menarik perhatian,, BIOINFORMATICS,, hee,, menarik2,, bile ak search2 n bace2 psl ni,, jatuh cinte gak,, erm,,

so ak da decide,, ak masuk form 6 sains kt SMK Ledang,, wt STPM btul2,, pas rzult kuo apply JPA pnye biasiswa tuk Program Ijazah Dlm Negara kt MMU,, nnt ley duk umah,, dr rmh ak nk g MMU stgh jam je,, yez2,, xyah duk stel,, alhamdulillah,, klu x dpt yg JPA tu pn xpe la,, ak ttp nk msuk MMU ,, ak usahakn loan mara ke t,,

org sekeliling kutuk2 ak,, keji2 ak,, hina2 ak,, ckp ak gile,, ckp ak bodo,, tp mak ak x,, abah x,, so xpe,, jnji mak ak ley trime,, pedulik ape ak ngn org len,, bkn diorg yg lahirkn ak,, lntk la korg nk ckp pe pn,, ak tau pe ak wat,, pedulik pe korg? bnci gle kt org yg mengata ak,, lntk la,, pahala korg ak dpt dosa ak korg amek la wt bekalan lam kubo t,, huh,, klu nk ikut grm mmg la cmtu,, tp xpe, ak maafkn korg sume,, xpe,, xpe,, xpe,, spe ak tuk mrh? x layak pn,, ak juz dak budus yg homesick,, huh,,

tapi yg pnting ade gak yg bg smgt tuk ak,, beberape manusia yg phm n yakin ngn ak,, x ramai,, stakat nih de la 9 orang,, 9 org yg x kondem ak cm nk mati,, huh,, ak mule terpk,, betape ak nih x meyakinkn org,, tah la,, lntak,, ak de 9 org yg caye kt ak,,

aku mengaku ak da mule malu nk kua rmh n jmpe org,, seolah2 cm ak da wt bnde yg sgt memalukn,, huh,, npe prasaan cmni ade ek? m'b sbb terlalu byk kne kutuk,, huh,, lntk la,, lntk la,, ak tau STPM exam no. 5 tersusah kt dunia,, n org ckp klu nk bandingkn stpm ngn spm,, spm tu mcm pra sekolah or tadika je,, dpt x korg bygkn? ak bkn sngaje nk caik maut mek stpm,. bkn,, tp sbb tu je pilihn yg ak ade n de gak byk kelebihn STPM,, korg x pnh ke pk npe org mmg nk msuk u or metrik pas spm,, npe org x sasarkn stpm trus mase dpt rzult spm,, ( ak pn mcm tu dulu ),, sbb org pndg rendah kt stpm,, org pndg rendah kt dak form6,, tu 1 sbb,, sbb lg 1 ialah org yg x pndg rendah pn diorg tau yg stpm sains ssh gile,, laa,, masuk uni x ssh ke?

bg ak lak ,, berdsrkn buku stpm yg ak da try belek2,, mmg stpm ssh,, mmg,, tp klu stdy tol2 bley je,, xde pe yg impossible,, kene rajin n konsisten stdy,,kenal x NAJMIL FARIS MUHD ARIS?? xkenal? xpe la,, ak kenal,, someone yg de kene mengene ngn STPM,, pnah jd agak famous dulu,, mls nk cite,, xknl xpe la,,

so,, lusa,, ak g dftr form 6 sains kt smk ledang,, lupekn uia buat selama2nya,,

Semoga aku dibantu Allah,,